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Someone who’d discovered that the people who claimed to care about you most could also be the ones most willing to abandon you when caring became inconvenient. I left the motel key on the nightstand and walked out into the December morning. The Honda started on the first try, as if it knew we were finally going somewhere better.
But I didn’t drive to the airport immediately. Instead, I took a detour past Jane’s house, a modest colonial in a decent neighborhood with Frank’s truck in the driveway and children’s toys scattered across the front lawn. The house where I’d been tolerated for six weeks before being gently, politely, efficiently pushed out.
I’d learned that dignity, once lost, wasn’t easily recovered. And I’d learned that sometimes the people who hurt you most are the ones who do it with smiles and excuses and the careful language of love. I put the car in drive and headed for the airport.
Behind me, Jane’s house grew smaller in the rearview mirror. Ahead of me, California waited, and with it, the chance to discover who I might become when I no longer had to be grateful for scraps of affection from people who saw me as a burden. The transformation had already begun.
I could feel it in the way I held my shoulders, in the steadiness of my hands on the steering wheel. I was no longer the woman who’d accepted sleeping in a car because her daughter was too busy to care. The California sun felt like forgiveness against my face as I stepped off the plane at LAX.
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