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Or maybe exhaustion. Or maybe I just needed to see for myself. “I’ll think about it,” I said.
Two days later, I drove to the rehab center. I barely recognized my mother-in-law. Marjorie looked smaller and older.
Her eyes filled with tears immediately. “I didn’t think you’d come,” she whispered. I stood near the door.
“I almost didn’t.”
She nodded as if she’d expected that. For a long time, neither of us spoke. Then she said very quietly, “I thought I was helping.
I thought if I erased the house, I could erase the pain.” Her voice cracked. “I was terrified of being alone. And I took that fear out on you.”
She didn’t justify it.
Didn’t blame grief. Didn’t say “but” or “you have to understand.” She just apologized. “I was wrong,” she added, looking directly at me for the first time.
“I had no right. I destroyed something precious because I couldn’t handle my own grief. And I’m so, so sorry.”
It wasn’t loud or dramatic.
That I might never fully trust her. That sorry doesn’t undo emptiness. She nodded.
“I understand. I don’t expect forgiveness. I just needed you to know I see it now.
What I did.”
“It wasn’t your house to empty. It wasn’t your grief to manage. Those were my things.
My memories. My choice.”
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