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Edward finally made it plain. He suggested that after the wedding, my paycheck should go into a shared fund, a centralized account. He said it would be easier that way, cleaner.
He said they could help monitor it so there would be no confusion and no risk. The way he said monitor made my skin crawl. It was the voice you use when you’re talking about equipment, not a human being.
He stared at his plate for a second, then looked up and offered a small controlled smile like he was trying to keep everyone calm. I asked him right there with my dad sitting next to me and a table full of people pretending not to listen. You knew about this?
My voice stayed level, but I could hear the edge underneath it. Callum hesitated. A few seconds.
Not long, but long enough. Then he said, “I think it’s reasonable.”
Reasonable. Like my independence was an inconvenience that needed sorting.
The room didn’t move. Margaret didn’t look surprised. Edward didn’t look nervous.
That told me everything I needed to know. This wasn’t a new idea. This wasn’t a casual suggestion.
This had been discussed, agreed upon, rehearsed. I was the last person at the table to be informed. After dinner, Callum and I argued for the first time in a way that felt real.
Not bickering, not tension you can smooth over with a kiss. Real conflict. I told him I wasn’t handing my money to anyone.
He avoided my eyes and said I was making it complicated. He said I was turning it into a fight when it didn’t have to be. He said his parents were just trying to protect us.
That was the moment it clicked in my chest. Heavy and undeniable. Protect us from what?
From my choices. From my freedom. From me.
I realized I wasn’t arguing with an outside force. I was arguing with the man I was about to marry and he wasn’t standing beside me. He was standing in the doorway between me and his family and he was holding it open for them.
Later that night, my dad knocked on my hotel room door. He didn’t come in. He just stood there for a minute, hands in his pockets, and said, “If you want to walk away, you can.
You don’t owe anyone a performance.”
I told him I didn’t know if I could. The wedding was too close. The plans were too big.
I lay awake staring at the ceiling, replaying Callum’s face when he said it was reasonable. I had been asking myself for months whether he loved me. That night, a sharper question took its place.
Did he love me, or did he love the stability I represented? The wedding was coming fast, and I could feel the ground narrowing beneath my feet. The night before the wedding, the hotel room felt smaller than it should have.
My dress hung in the closet like a ghost, waiting for morning. The itinerary binder sat on the desk, thick with schedules and vendor notes and timelines written down to the minute. I should have been excited.
I should have been nervous in the normal way. Instead, I felt trapped inside something polished and expensive that didn’t belong to me. The planner sent a final email late in the evening.
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