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I said, “I brought something for the engagement dinner.”
She paused, then tilted her head. She said, “Oh, they had the dinner yesterday.”
She shrugged. Said it was last minute. Her family was in town.
They figured it made sense. Then she smiled, thin like paper, and said they didn’t think I would be up for the travel anyway. Inside, I could hear laughter.
Someone clinked to glass. She never moved from the doorway. I felt the box get heavier in my arms—not from weight, but from shame.
A shame that didn’t belong to me, but had somehow made itself comfortable on my shoulders. I asked if I could come in for just a moment. She looked back, then she said, “Maybe another time.
They were still cleaning up. Too much going on.”
And then the door closed. Nine hours of driving for that.
I sat in the car for almost an hour. No one came out. Not Miles, not even a text.
Nothing. The box sat between us like a witness. I kept thinking back to when he was eight—when he cried because I wouldn’t let him draw on those maps.
Now they were just mine again. Eventually, I started the car and pulled away. There’s a kind of silence that happens when someone closes a door on you without a sound.
It’s louder than shouting. He didn’t raise his voice. He didn’t even speak.
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