I Flew In to Surprise My Son for His Birthday—and Found Him Sleeping in an Airport Parking Lot with His Twin Boys. By the Time the Sun Set, the Story He’d Been Silenced Under Started Falling Apart.

A gray sedan sat at the far edge, slightly crooked in its space, as if whoever parked it hadn’t had the energy to straighten it out. What caught my eye were the windows, clouded from the inside despite the cold March air, as though the car itself were breathing.

A memory I didn’t want stirred somewhere deep in my chest. I moved closer, my steps cautious, my mind already inventing explanations I didn’t believe. When I leaned toward the driver’s side window, the world narrowed to a single frame of glass.

My son, Andrew, was slumped forward in the seat, his jaw unshaven, his face thinner than I remembered. For a half-second I felt relief, absurd and misplaced, simply because he was there, because I recognized him. Then my gaze shifted to the back seat, and something inside me cracked open.

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