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The final message arrived at 3:22 a.m. I never thought you’d be this selfish. We’ll talk when you decide to act like an adult again.
I read it twice. The accusation of selfishness striking me as particularly ironic. After three decades of putting James first—financially, emotionally, practically—taking one action for myself was deemed selfish.
The concierge’s polite voice informed me that breakfast was ready to be served on my private terrace whenever I desired. I thanked him. Suddenly aware of a hunger that felt deeper than physical.
Wrapped in the hotel’s luxurious robe, I stepped onto the terrace where a covered breakfast waited. As I poured coffee from a silver pot, I made a decision. I would not call James back immediately.
For once, I would not rush to smooth things over. To explain myself. To make everything better for him.
Instead, I would have my breakfast, enjoy the mountain view, and consider what I truly wanted from this situation. The coffee was perfect. Rich and fragrant in a way my hurried morning cups at home never were.
The croissants were flaky and buttery. The fruit impeccably fresh. I savored each bite with unprecedented attention, realizing how rarely I ate without distraction.
Without mentally planning someone else’s event. Or solving someone else’s problem. My phone continued to buzz occasionally, but I left it on the table, screen down.
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