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Instead, I sat there, frozen.
Laura squeezed Dad’s hand harder. “We love each other.
The words landed wrong. Too fast. Too rehearsed.
I remember nodding. I don’t remember deciding to. My brother didn’t say anything.
He just walked out of the room.
Later that night, he called me.
“It’s grief,” I replied automatically. “People do strange things.”
I don’t know who I was trying to convince.
***
Over the next few weeks, everything moved quickly. Quietly.
Laura tried to include me.
“Do you want to help choose flowers?”
“I thought you might like to see the venue.”
I always declined.
“I’m fine,” I said.
“Do whatever you want.”
Dad pulled me aside once. “You’re okay with this, right?”
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