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They threatened to cut Julian off completely. No more tuition money. No trust fund.
No place in the family business empire they had spent generations building. But worse than that, they threatened to destroy my scholarship, my future, everything I had worked so hard to achieve. “They can’t do this,” Julian said when he told me about their ultimatum.
I’ll give up the money, the business, all of it. We’ll make our own way.”
But I was already pregnant with his child. Though I hadn’t told him yet.
I had discovered it three days earlier, sitting on the bathroom floor of my dorm with a plastic test strip in my shaking hands. I was 22 and terrified and desperately in love with a man whose family would destroy us both rather than accept me. That night, I made the hardest decision of my life.
I broke up with Julian without telling him about the baby. I gave him back his grandmother’s ring and walked away from everything we had built together. I told him I had realized we were too different.
That I didn’t want the life he was offering me. I watched his heart break in real time. Saw the confusion and pain in his eyes.
And I nearly crumbled. But I held firm. I let him believe I had stopped loving him rather than tell him the truth.
That his parents’ threats had terrified me. That I was carrying his child. That I was sacrificing our future to protect him from having to choose between me and everything he had ever known.
Three weeks later, I lost the baby. A miscarriage at eight weeks—sudden and devastating. I was alone when it happened.
Julian tried to reach out during those weeks. Leaving messages I didn’t return. Showing up at places he knew I would be.
I avoided him with the skill of someone whose heart was too shattered to risk further breaking. Eventually, he stopped trying. Eventually, he graduated and moved away.
And I never saw him again until tonight. Six months after our breakup, Fletcher Morrison asked me to marry him. Fletcher was a business acquaintance of my father’s—12 years older than me and nothing like Julian in any way.
He was stable. Predictable. Completely safe.
When I said yes, it wasn’t because I loved him. It was because I was tired of being alone with my grief. Tired of turning down Julian’s grandmother’s ring every night before bed.
I thought I could learn to love Fletcher. I thought safety and security might be enough to build a life on. I was wrong about that.
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