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The ocean didn’t stop moving. Neither did the thoughts in my head. Paul thought he had buried me, that I would rot quietly in a corner of some shelter.
He thought shame would keep me silent. He had no idea I was about to bury him with the very things he tried to steal. 3 days after I moved in, Vivien hosted a small welcome gathering at the clubhouse on the ground floor.
I chose the one with long sleeves, a light fabric that didn’t draw attention, but made me look like myself again. I arrived a few minutes before 6. The room was softly lit with finger foods arranged on white platters and a view of the ocean behind a row of glass windows.
About a dozen people were there, mostly other residents of the building, retired couples, a few widows, one older man who reminded me of my late husband, though thinner and with a sharper chin. I didn’t catch most of their names, but I recognized their warmth, the kind that doesn’t ask too much too soon. Vivien made sure to keep me close.
She introduced me with just enough detail to be polite, never crossing into anything personal. She never mentioned what had happened, never mentioned Paul, just told people I’d come to Clear Water for a fresh start, and was now officially part of the community. Her voice had that steady tone she used when setting boundaries.
While she mingled, I found myself at the far end of the room near the window, watching the light fade over the water. I was fine not speaking. I didn’t want to explain myself to strangers.
It was enough to be somewhere safe, surrounded by people who didn’t know what I had been through. That changed when one of the building security guards came in through the side door. Not for the party, just on patrol.
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