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He shrugged. “I hope so.”
We looked at each other for a long moment.
“Not some Hallmark-movie reconciliation.”
He smiled a little. “I’d settle for you not flinching every time I walk into a room.”
I sighed. “That one might take a minute.”
He nodded.
“I’ve got time.”
In the months after that, he kept showing up for things. He was really the reliable brother I’d once known.
He saw a therapist. Went to his group.
Started talking, little by little, about what he’d seen. What he’d done. How blurry right and wrong can get when you’re pretending to be the worst version of yourself.
He fixed bikes.
Burned pancakes. Sat through school plays. Cheered too loud at soccer games.
The kids adored him.
Some days, I still get flashes of who I thought he was.
The drunk brother, the liar, the addict.
Some days, I feel a wave of guilt so strong I have to sit down.
But we talk now.
Every Christmas, I buy the same gold-foil chocolates.
I put them out in a bowl on the coffee table.
The kids think it’s just a “Grandma tradition.”
For me, it’s a reminder.
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