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Not just for my health, but for my independence, my legal capacity, my ability to make decisions about my own life. “Your father,” I said carefully. “Does he know?”
Damian’s face crumpled slightly, and I saw the pain of a child forced to confront ugly truths about the people who should protect him.
The words hit me like a physical blow. My own son discussing my disappearance as if it were a financial planning decision.
“Dad doesn’t like it,” Damen continued quickly, seeing my expression. “He gets upset when Mom talks that way. But he’s scared of her, Grandma, just like I am.
She gets really angry when people don’t do what she wants.”
I reached across the table and took his small hand in mine. “What does she do when she gets angry?”
“She doesn’t hit or anything,” he said. Which should have been reassuring, but somehow wasn’t.
“But she has ways of making people sorry they didn’t listen.”
“Like when I was five and I accidentally said ‘Mama’ in front of the doctor. She told me later that if I ever spoke again when I wasn’t supposed to, she’d send me away to a special hospital where I’d never see you or Dad again.”
The threat was as cruel as it was effective. A five-year-old child just beginning to understand the world around him, silenced by the terror of losing everyone he loved.
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