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Her eyes, rimmed with early traces of worry that had taken permanent residence there, reflected both pride and apprehension. She noticed the slight slump of his shoulders, the way his fingers lingered over the menu without touching it.
She knew he was thinking the way children sometimes do in families like theirs: carefully, strategically, guarding against disappointment and imagining only the worst outcomes.
To want something — a toy, a treat, a simple slice of cake — was to expose oneself to potential failure, to risk the sting of denial or, worse, the subtle judgment of the world that equated wanting with unworthiness.
So when the waitress approached with a cheerful suggestion, asking if he might like a slice of chocolate cake, his answer came without hesitation: a firm, polite shake of the head.
Not because he didn’t want it — he did, desperately, but because he had been taught by experience that the very act of asking could carry consequences.
His refusal was not indifference; it was protection. Protection for himself, certainly, but even more for his mother, whose eyes already carried more worry than any child should be expected to see.
Asking for more, voicing desire, meant risking disappointment, drawing attention to the gaps in their lives, and amplifying the quiet struggle they were navigating with what little they had.
That awareness, heavy and precise, was not something that should belong to a child. And yet, there it was — instinctive, practiced, burdened with understanding beyond his years.
Their meal was quiet. The clinking of utensils against ceramic plates punctuated the soft murmur of other early diners. Each bite he took was measured, each sip of water calculated.
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