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Surviving One Day at a Time
The weeks that followed felt blurry, like I was moving underwater. I ended up staying on a friend’s couch—someone from school who didn’t hesitate when she saw the state I was in, even though her apartment was small and noisy and barely big enough for herself. She didn’t ask for explanations. She handed me a blanket, pointed at the sofa, and said, “You can stay.”
There were mornings I woke up with swollen ankles, evenings when the exhaustion made me cry quietly in the break room, and afternoons when I questioned whether I could keep going. But I didn’t have the luxury of giving up. I had someone depending on me, even before he took his first breath.
My parents didn’t reach out—not once. No call. No message. No attempt to reconnect. It was as though I had simply been erased from the family album.
But even loneliness can become a kind of fuel. The more I realized how alone I was, the more determined I became to build something stable. Something that would last. Something better for the child I was about to raise.
The Baby Who Changed Everything
When my son was born, everything shifted again—but this time in a way that brought light instead of darkness. The first time I held him, his tiny fingers curled around mine with such trust that it made every night spent working, every tear shed behind a locked door, every moment of doubt feel like stepping stones to this single instant.
He became my anchor. My motivation. My joy. And even on the hardest days, when money was tight and sleep came in fragments, I knew that leaving him was not an option. I understood commitment in a way my parents never showed me.
Years passed, slowly at first and then all at once. My son grew into a child who laughed easily, asked a million questions a day, loved pancakes for dinner, and had the kind of gentle heart that made people smile. I found a stable job with benefits, rented a small but comfortable home, slowly built savings, and even allowed myself occasional moments of peace.
Raising him alone wasn’t easy, but it was honest. It was full of meaning. And it was ours.
He knew early on that his grandparents weren’t in our lives. I didn’t lie to him or embellish the truth. I simply told him that some people make choices they later regret, and sometimes you have to protect yourself from being hurt again. He accepted this with more grace than many adults could.
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