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I stood up, pushing the chair away with a clatter. My vision blurred. All the hopeful moments, all the tender glances, all the innocent giggles from my daughter – they replayed in my mind, now tainted, grotesque. Every kind word he’d spoken, every seemingly genuine tear he’d shed, was a calculated move. He hadn’t wanted to be a father to her. He hadn’t changed. He hadn’t missed her. He had simply needed her.
He saw our daughter not as a child to love, but as a cure.

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I walked out of that coffee shop, leaving him sitting there, his pleas echoing in my ears. The cold night air didn’t cool the burning shame and rage within me. I had let him in. I had dared to hope. And in doing so, I had unknowingly exposed my daughter to the most calculated, gut-wrenching form of exploitation imaginable.
My ex reached out about our daughter, and I had to see his true intentions. And those intentions were to use her, to exploit her innocence, for a secret life he kept hidden. And now, I had to figure out how to protect my daughter from a man who saw her only as a biological solution, and how to pick up the pieces of her broken heart all over again, knowing it was my own desperate hope that had paved the way for his ultimate betrayal.
I knew I would never tell her the truth. Not ever. Not if I could help it. She deserved to believe in good, even if her father was incapable of it. But I knew. I knew the monstrous truth. And it would haunt me, and him, forever.
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