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The afternoon sun streamed through my kitchen windows as Damen and I sat at the small round table, sharing a lunch of grilled cheese sandwiches and tomato soup. It felt surreal. This ordinary moment, made extraordinary by the fact that we were actually talking.
For the first time in eight years, I could hear my grandson’s thoughts, his questions, his observations about the world around him. “Tell me about the medicine,” I said gently, cutting his sandwich into smaller pieces out of habit. “How long has your mother been putting it in my tea?”
“I think it started about 2 years ago. That’s when you began sleeping more during your visits. And when Mom started saying you were getting confused about things.”
Two years.
I thought back to that time, remembering how Dean and Nyla had begun expressing concern about my memory. Little things at first—forgetting where I’d put my car keys, losing track of conversations mid-sentence, feeling overwhelmingly tired even after a full night’s sleep. I’d attributed it to aging.
Maybe the beginning stages of cognitive decline that ran in my family. “What exactly does she put in the tea?” I asked, though I dreaded the answer. “Different pills,” Damen said, his voice matter-of-fact in the way children can be about even terrible things.
“She breaks them down really fine.”
“I watched her do it through the crack in their bedroom door. She has a little container where she keeps the powder, and she mixes it into the tea packets with a tiny spoon.”
The methodical nature of it made my stomach churn. This wasn’t an impulsive act of desperation.
It was calculated, planned, executed with the kind of precision that spoke to long-term intentions. “Do you know what kind of pills?” I pressed. Damian nodded, and his next words chilled me to the bone.
“I heard her tell Dad that if you took enough of them over time, it could cause something called cognitive decline, and that doctors would just think it was normal for someone your age.”
I set down my spoon, no longer able to pretend I had an appetite. The picture Damian was painting was of a systematic plan designed to make me appear mentally incompetent. The implications were staggering.
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